Thoughts for 15th Dec 2004

Okay now its time to explain why I suddenly got inspiration for the poem =P Been going through quite a rough patch lately, sigh... Found someone I really love but like, i don't know... Its hard when shes always busy and like yeah, actually feel lonelier after knowing her... I don't know how much of this I can take, and like really wondering if i should reconsider it all, just so many things running through my head so its like really confusing yeah... But hey !!! Like my poem says theres gonna be a way out !!! No idea what I should do or anything yet but from past experiences, God has alway helped me out so yeah !!! Will preservere =)

And the other thing is my studies, man i screwed up my last one and a half years and like got a lot of catching up to do, gonna have to study like crazy but its okay !!! Know I can do it with God's help yup =)

And now on to lighter things. Went for a dinner for some distant relative's wedding, where I was surrounded by even more distant relatives I have never heard off or seen before. So yeah, was like EXTREMELY bored, and the food sucked okay !!! Tasted bad and like so lil of it. It was like totally cheesy normal chinese wedding, super drama music and cheesy entries and stuff, and to make the whole thing worst then it was already the service sucked BIG TIME. Its like everyone was smiling, upside down, and like they had attitude man, like will NEVER have my wedding dinner there next time thats for sure. Got a long day of school tomorrow argh... Hopefully I'll still be alive at the end of it =P

Well guess thats about all for today, yeah, gotta stop somewhere or I'll just keep going on haha =P