Thinking

Gosh, valatines is coming and like haha, kinda just makes me depressed. Yups been feeling down and stuff about this kinda things, but kinda have it sorted out already. In fact it was suppose to be all sorted out already, guess somethings just are hard to put down. Thing is I gave up on relationships and 'love', gave it up the moment I chose to leave my school and go and do music, because I decided to commit my life to music and using it to glorify God, and relationships and all that usually just wear me down, so yeah, I gave it all up, if God wills I will find someone if not I'm fine with it. But guess its hard sometimes, you don't want to be alone right? And yeah it sucks, but like last night I was listening to music and I felt so much better. Kinda realize God did leave something else for me to keep me company, music. Which explains why I love music so much, its what makes me high, what gives me joy, what gives me a whole new meaning to life, and behind it all is God who made me able to appreciate music so much, to not just hear but feel, and understand the music, and gave me talents and the passion to want to know and learn everything about it. I guess you can say I'm a musical hermit, certainly feel that way, and I'm finally accepting that it is enough, God and music is enough for me I don't have to look for people who will love me or anything, i am satisfied =)

I am committed.
This man on a mission.
There is no turning back for this devoted musican.