Weird

Sigh... I'm weird, the whole want to feel sad thing is coming back to me, or at least I think it is. I don't know why ever since I can remember I've had so many sleepless nights crying, so many times I've felt really heartbroken and hurt that somehow I feel comfortable being sad. I just can't explain it, I'll just feel kinda sad and wanna take out my sad songs, listen to them and just cry and stuff. And this time its even weirder cause I still feel a happiness, yet at the same time I feel that sorrow, and I just wanna dive deeper into this sadness, I don't know, its just so strange. I'm okay with being sad, yeah, and I'm okay with people hurting me, strange as it is, I rather they hurt me than I hurt them which is a good thing right? I don't know whats wrong but things just don't feel right, oh well tomorrow will be a better day, if not theres the next day or the one after, however long it'll take it'll eventually be okay =)