Sigh...

Sigh

When words can't describe what you're feeling
When you can't stop the tears from flowing

Pain

Theres so much of it its killing
So much its more than overbearing

Hope

So little its almost despairing
Still I cling on instead of falling





What can I say, theres probably nothing that can describe what I'm feeling now, cause its just a big mess of emotions when your world is turned upside-down right in front of you. Why? Why must it happen to the people I care for? Why not me? I'd willing take that persons place, I'd willing suffer instead. But thats not the way it is is it? So many questions, so much confusion, clashing emotions, I'm just lost in it all. Yet I cling on to what little hope I can habour, cling on to the knowledge God will make it all alright, although in all alright it could mean the worst really happening and me getting over it somehow, which seems impossible at the moment. It's one of those turning points, or at least it affects me the same way leaving me forever changed, just that which way it turns I don't decide, just have to trust God has it all worked out for me. I never expected God to test my faith so much, I never in my mind imagined something like this to be possible, just feels so unreal. But I'll hold on, like I always have, and I know God will reward my faithfulness, somehow I know. I'll never stop thinking positive, its the way God wants me to live, and I wouldn't let this change that, even though its so easy to just doubt and give up...






Persevere

Cause you'll see the light at the end
Cause God wouldn't let this be the end

Live

Cause life is worth living
Cause God wouldn't let you go wasting