Hm...

I think I'm throwing the whole notion of love and romance outta the window, its just not meant for me. I know my standards are high and I don't intend to lower them, so yeah, I'll just be lonely all my life, just like I predicted from the very beginning. Such a tradegy, what I want I'll never find, all I get is possiblities that can never be acheived and lotsa false hopes, I have to stop falling for people when I know it'd never work out, sigh... Why do I keep telling myself that but let it happen all the time... My prayer for today is to be tougher, to not fall in love again, all it does it hurt me and leave me bad memories, thats all I seem to have really, all my good memories erased and replaced with all the hurt that just keeps coming over and over again. Its a vicious cycle and I want out, I'm ditching the whole love thing for now. Slipped away, I have slipped away...


The cynical, the lost,
the shattered hearts without a cause.
All left to rot in decedent and pain.

void of emotion and void of thought,
gone forever and changed within.
There is no end when there was no beginning.

Despair your friend in desperation,
feel the coldness take you over.






Pardon my nonsensical ranting for a moment, I'll get it straight eventually, but for now I just wanna embrace my despair for awhile. I guess the pain lets me know I'm still alive.



Juliana Theory - As It Stands

everything i have in my head
it begins to fade away
i search for it and i long for it
now i know it's gone
everything has slipped away

and im so overwhelmed
everything that rests upon my shoulders fell
i would like to tell anyone who has depended on me for themselves,
i'm sorry

and everyone i've held in my arms
i believe i pushed away
i would be there if i could be there
but as it stands i'm gone
everyone has slipped away

don't be overwhelmed
everyone that loved me more than i could tell,
i'm sorry
there's a private hell for anyone who lives to only love themselves

everyone has slipped away
everyone has slipped away
everyone has slipped away

everything has slipped away