What Has Become Of Me?

Honestly what have I become? I don't know anymore, I don't know what I'm doing, I don't know why I'm living, feel like I've become another walking dead. Just a empty soul walking around with a wound that has torn everything apart and left me with nothing, nothing really seems to matter anymore. I think I'm losing it, talking to myself all the time, arguing and fighting with myself, theres just no one I can talk to, no one I can really be open with and its sad, but thats the way life is isn't it? We're suppose to get through it ourselves, or at least thats what I feel, its like every man for himself, and helping others comes only when everything is fine and perfect. I don't know, for me it's always been other people first myself last, and I guess its been a long time coming cause I've been ignoring my own issues and only thinking about other people. Yeah I have friends who listen but than they have their own problems to, and somehow I know they don't wanna know too much about mine. Its okay really, cause like they're not suppose too and yeah I understand, in the first place I don't really know whats wrong with myself now, so yeah I can't really talk about it. I guess theres nothing than can really be done, got lots of soul searching to do, hopefully I'll be alright soon, cause it really is killing me inside.







Hanging on by a thread,
God when will it end?
Sit here praying for an escape,
Wouldn't you come take me away?