A Different Me, A New Start

I think I've changed a bit since camp, and yeah its a good change =) Like I feel more peaceful and stuff, and yeah, honestly doesn't bother me anymore that you know I don't have people to hang out with and all. During camp I did a lot of sorting out, and one of the important things that got sorted out is the realization of a promise I made to God. I chose to give my whole life to Him quite a while back, and I really meant everything in my life. That includes all my friendships, which means He gets a say on who I'm friends with and all that. And if its such that I don't really have any close friends at all I'll accept that, cause it was my decision anyway. Like during the last day of camp there was a period like I was just by myself. And yeah, I did feel a bit lonely at first but I remembered my promise to God so I just quietly sat in a corner out of the way and spent some time with God. It was so much more meaningful then all the mindless chatter, haha, I guess thats why I seem to have less friends cause I don't want to make new ones and have to start with all the superficial talk, while I seem to have drifted with all the people I used to be closer with and can't really have deep conversations with them anymore. But yeah, there were still people here and there who really helped me, like Salene thanks man! The talk we had on the second night, it really helped me look at things again, and yeah, really did help me in sorting out everything =) And I relived my first love for music again haha, music will always be a very important part of my life. Even though my life will probably continue to be relatively quiet, its all okay really, I still have God for company, and yeah, I don't think being with anyone else could really compare with that =P Though I still wish I had someone on Earth to talk to and share stuff with, it really is up to God if He wants to send me someone like that.




With faith like a child,
I hung on and God pulled me out.