Thinking About Thoughts

You know after all the stuff I've gone through, I've realize one very scary thing. What you think makes you. Its true, its not the environment, not the people around, but what you think that shapes you. All the environment, the people around you do is put thoughts in your head, and it really is up to you what you make of it and do with it. Letting yourself dwell on the negative thoughts will eventually lead to you believing them, and while some of it may be true, what you do with knowing that is important too. And really I've learn I have to take control of my thoughts, if I just keep feeling miserable about myself it'll get me nowhere... And if I just hate myself I'll just dig myself deeper in despair, so I'm gonna try and surrender every thought I have to God, give it away before its allowed to fester and ruin me yeah... Because thoughts are dangerous, they really are, if I don't monitor them my mind will just become the devil's playground, and it'll just be a wreck. And the only way to stop that really is to just give it all up to God. Just dawned on me God wants all of me, not just my body and my heart but my mind as well, and its the mind thats the hardest to give up, cause we want to have our own opinions, we want to think things through and decide on things, we want to be in control so much. So now my prayer is to surrender my mind, to let my thoughts be His thoughts and to change myself through the way I think. Or its one aspect anyway.