ZZzzz...

Another boring day comes and goes, another day wasted, one step closer to the day I die =D Well it isn't much of a life, but I guess its all good, I'd make a great emo singer, cause I have all the experience to back me up haha =P Man I love music, really just brings me to another world, so unreal yet so wonderful, yups, its gonna be what I live for, spending my life making wonderful music. And no pathetic sappy love songs, no unrealistic songs of how wonderful things are and all that crap, just real, down-to-earth songs of how dark and cruel everything is yeah. Because for people like me real life is all about suffering isn't it? And love is really just a dream, unrealistic lies to deceive the mind and only delay the ultimate heartbreak, the moment where you give up on everything altogether and give in to just being cold. The only thing that excites me everyday is knowing I'm actually one day closer to dying, and hopefully it comes sooner than later, gosh I hope I die a spectacular death =D I bet the next time I'm really happy and am smiling for real will be that day haha, I think its a nice thing don't you? Dying happy with a smile on your face =D But for now I'll just have to 'live on' yups, till the day I finally leave this place of darkness, of pain and lies, till the day I am free and I give my final smile of joy, I will be waiting...