Hm...

Just another one of my hm... postings, haha, nothing much going on in my life really just the same old lame old boring stuff =P Hm... yeah, just thinking about stuff, strange how I don't really care about love and romance, all that stuff anymore. I think I'm finally learning to depend fully on God which is a good thing yeah, and i have great friends like audrey, deb, jh, and all my other cg mates, *hugs* love ya guys =) And I have so much to do as it is already !!! I've gotta start exercising again, I'm REALLY outta shape, and like I have all my music stuff to practise and all, gosh I guess I don't really have time for a relationship, or I could probably fit it in but somehow just doesn't seem to matter anymore. I think I'm becoming cynical about romance and all, *shrug* it isn't really important anyway so yeah, I'll just leave it as that =P

Back Again =)

Its me again !!! Haha, gotta so bored I decided I'd do a posting =P Yup hm... whats up uh... got a couple more CDs, um... just been a few crazy weeks, and gosh doesn't look like its gonna slow down any bit, haha but I got rest today !!! YAY !!! After like gosh, I dunno how long haha. Been goin home late for so many days, phew... today was like really early and guess it was a good break. Had fun yesterday !!! Band training was interesting, found out more stuff I had to work on, gotta practise more =P And vocals was good too !!! New people, more fun, haha yeah !!! I love singing ^_^ And today was fun too !!! Haha yeah, I'm just so full of nonsense and I love it =P

=)

Haha yups !!! I'm happy !!! Yay !!! =P Yesterday was great !!! Thanks guys for celebrating my birthday with me had fun yeah =) Went shopping yes !!! Bought quite a lotta stuff than watched a movie, Kingdom of Heaven and to end it all ate at NYDC (yummy !!! =D~) Haha yups, and thanks jh and deb !!! You guys got the thing thats really useful for me ^_^ (Like duh, can't get me CDs so get me CD shop voucher right? =P) *Hugs* thanks guys !!! And even calvin yes, thanks for coming =) Haha yup yup, 19 hm... don't really feel any different, I'm still silly old nonsensical music crazy me yeah, I don't know, always felt older than my age so I guess like when I really get older doesn't really affect me? Haha yeah =P

Happy Birthday To Me !!!

YAY !!! Happy birthday to me !!! Now I can go to sleep !!! =x Haha fun day ahead =)

Lalala~

=) Haha, back to my usual silly happy mood =P Yesterday was fun !!! WOOHOO !!! Yeah yeah like accompanied deb to get her skirt haha (I was one of the few people who knew about it before everyone else ;) ) than yup yup, met up wif jh yayers !!! Although they ganged up to suan me >.< (That wasn't very nice =l ) But guess its only fair, since I always suan them =P Tsk, now I know I can never let the people I always suan be together at the same time with me, cause they'll all gang up on me =l TOMORROW IS A VERY SPECIAL DAY !!! =P Haha, yeshie, you guys should know ;) Going on a shopping spree !!! YAY, and than gonna catch a movie too haha, yesh yesh lotsa fun man I'm so high now =P Lalala~

Sigh...

Sigh

When words can't describe what you're feeling
When you can't stop the tears from flowing

Pain

Theres so much of it its killing
So much its more than overbearing

Hope

So little its almost despairing
Still I cling on instead of falling





What can I say, theres probably nothing that can describe what I'm feeling now, cause its just a big mess of emotions when your world is turned upside-down right in front of you. Why? Why must it happen to the people I care for? Why not me? I'd willing take that persons place, I'd willing suffer instead. But thats not the way it is is it? So many questions, so much confusion, clashing emotions, I'm just lost in it all. Yet I cling on to what little hope I can habour, cling on to the knowledge God will make it all alright, although in all alright it could mean the worst really happening and me getting over it somehow, which seems impossible at the moment. It's one of those turning points, or at least it affects me the same way leaving me forever changed, just that which way it turns I don't decide, just have to trust God has it all worked out for me. I never expected God to test my faith so much, I never in my mind imagined something like this to be possible, just feels so unreal. But I'll hold on, like I always have, and I know God will reward my faithfulness, somehow I know. I'll never stop thinking positive, its the way God wants me to live, and I wouldn't let this change that, even though its so easy to just doubt and give up...






Persevere

Cause you'll see the light at the end
Cause God wouldn't let this be the end

Live

Cause life is worth living
Cause God wouldn't let you go wasting

M.A.D. At The Zoo !!!

Lol yeah !!! Yesterday was great fun, was at the zoo with my CG mates =D Haha yeah, spent A LOT, gosh so expensive, but was really cool !!! So much nonsense haha !!! Yeah so even though I've got stuff on my mind its okay !!! I know God will make it all alright =) Had fun on sunday too, went for my usual shopping trip, bought 3 CDs and 2 t-shirts, I think thats all the shopping I'm gonna be doing for this two weeks yeah, gonna watch my spending yesh yesh =P I do say I think cause its gonna be my birthday soon !!! So its highly likely I might spend more that day =P