I'm pretty tired now, past two days have really been crazy, busy with so much stuff but I must say it all ended very well today. Yesterday had to play for Paoyin's sister's wedding, then after that had band practice, AND finally cantata (Choir) practice. So yeah, it was tiring, but strangely enough I had the energy to go through everything, and I do still feel a lil awake. I'm guessing cause I'm still on a bit of a spiritual high haha. Today was good, I think worship went well and it was a lil different from usual. But it was all good stuff, yeah slipped-up a bit but in the end gave my all to God and yeah, wonderful time. The skit GOSH, i slipped on the longer lines, that one always gets me THANK GOODNESS I still managed to get the main idea across. And yeah, heard I did pretty well, PHEW, hugh sigh of relieve there haha.
But really what topped off everything was tonight, it was really a special night. Considering I didn't think I would be going to the Godsrockers BBQ, it all turned out to be a pleasant surprise. And its so strange how like God just makes things happen and fit together so nicely. Like I didn't think I would be going so I was thinking like what I would say if I did go and there was a time of sharing. So YEAH, haha, in the end I did go and everything I wanted to say was in my head already. But I have to say everythings just been building up recently. Like I've been talking to Simon and Kevin, and you know its just so much to think about at what we see at Godsrockers and what we want to see, what we think can be done. And I realized its always been like that, its always talking about what we think we can do and like every once in awhile try it or hope that someone else will initiate it. But today I just felt so different, I just felt God was challenging me to get off the backseat AND go do some driving, go start something. It's like He was telling me, hey I've given you all those dreams and visions, I've given you all the ideas and the talent and resources, so DO IT, don't just sit there and wait for it, you want it then make it happen.
So for next year, I'm gonna do it, actually starting from now I'm gonna do it. I'm not gonna delay going to do worship leading anymore, God gave me a vision of the kind of worship leader he wants me to be and all the ideas to try and create a better environment to worship in. But its not gonna help if I just talk about it and try and get other people to do it, I HAVE to DO IT MYSELF. Make it happen, set an example and start a spark. The only way I'm gonna see something happen is to DO IT MYSELF, not praying that God will make something happen and wait for it but pray that God will use ME to make it happen and start the wildfire. Its gotta start somewhere, and once the momentum builds nothing can stop it short of ourselves. Which is why I have to keep in mind even though I have to answer the call and set an example, it is not me who starts the fire but God in me, working through me and guiding me. God gave me passion, love and joy, and I want to share this with everyone. And what I really want to focus on is passion, I want to see a passionate youth ministry.
And talking about a passionate youth ministry gets me so excited. Its coming and I'm standing up to play my part in it, and I know the others will follow suit. Its so amazing that everyone is starting to feel it, the build-up is just incredible and I know it wouldn't be long before it just explodes and everyone and just go to a different level of relationship with God. I'm still waiting for the day the youths aren't afraid to jump around and rejoice or do whatever they want, I know thats still restrain. That day will come I know it, it wouldn't be long now =D
And the last thing I had to think about was outreach, sharing with the people outside who are lost or just don't know a thing. It is scary, thinking about sharing Christ with a complete stranger, and it really takes a lot of courage. And honestly I can't really do it yet. Sure I do try and share with my friends and yeah, ask them if their interested but strangers, thats a completely different thing all together. I still have a long way to go on that, but yeah, just gonna take small steps at a time.
With faith like a child.
