Jazz =D

Woohoo !!! Really into jazz stuff nowadays, yeah was busy looking up on jazz music last night so thats why there isn't a post =P Like got some really great stuff, especially all the latin jazzy stuff gosh, so nice man !!! Like I went to try find a CD just now but darn !!! Can't find it so I'm going down to HMV tmorrow to see if I can find it yeah. Rest of the day hm... so-so i guess, nothing much really, school boring as usual and yeah, thats about all. Well tomorrows gonna be a fun day !!! And most likely wouldn't be making any postings also cause like will be staying over at Glenn's house with my cg woohoo !!! =D

Tired !!! But Had Fun !!!

Haha, today was wow !!! Like really tired now, just running on a high kinda thing, like school was really really boring and like I almost died but after that yay !!! Went out with rach yeah, been like quite some time since been out wif her so it was nice yup yup. And like spend most of the time walking around looking for food for me to eat haha, I am so picky sometimes. Then later, like when I was on MRT reached my station already I was silly enough to message my darling 'bf' who just happened to be there to, and got asked to go for dinner along with her, and like I can't resist that !!! So yeah, was with the creative min people and haha, although I was tired and stuff it was fun !!! And like I'm glad I went, *muacks* thanks my darling 'bf' !!! =P

ZZzzz... Boring Day...

Lalala, this is a boring day... Oh well... Good news !!! I'm getting a new computer yay !!! Someone is like giving my dad a new computer, how cool right? And like I'll be changing to wireless internet too yeah so both computers will be linked =D And oh I'm playing drums this week YAY !!! Like been itching to play lately don't know why, but yeah, fun fun, woohoo !!! And like I'm starting to grow into new stuff music wise yeah, more of indie stuff, jazz stuff, and like latin stuff, like gosh !!! I'm outgrowing rock a bit like how weird right !!! Haha well not really actually, I'll always love rock yeah =P Ya know what, I think I'm kinda artistic. Okay okay I'm not like being egoistic or anything but yeah, I just love arts. Like music I don't even need to say everyone knows I'm a music freak =P But I think not many people know I like to dance haha, yeah its a lil something I don't really show people. And theres a lot more untapped potential in me and like only I know it =P Like I love reading, poetry, literature, all things to do with writing, and like I really love writing. I also like drawing, have quite a strong imagination and sometimes like just get inspiration to draw stuff. And also I have this drama-mama side of me I think almost everyone doesn't know about =P Yeah its true, sometimes I feel like acting and stuff, and like can really get into roles and stuff, but my only problem is I'm kinda shy when it comes to this =P Oh well, yups, strange the stuff I think about, I'm always thinking so theres always something new =P

Boxing Day Cool

Haha, today is Boxing Day, cool, like cause I don't really get presents anyway so yeah, cool =P Haha well today was quite alright I guess, was just slacking and like doing nothing much really, but yeah, was with my cg and my darling 'bf' !!! So was still kinda fun =) My dad is gonna get keyboards !!! Yay !!! Cause like my bro is suppose to learn, and I wanna learn too so yeah, just good =) Yups I'm crazy, I wanna learn everything man like I just love music so much I wish I could just commit my whole life to making good music right away but I know God wants me to do other stuff first so oh wellies, I can wait =P But don't be surprised if like you see my albums on sale or something next time !!! Its highly possible haha =P So yeah, interesting Christmas I guess, somehow isn't like what it used to be, but still it aint like really bad or anything just different I suppose =)

Christmas =)

Haha, today is Christmas yay !!! Yup yup quite a lot happened but a lil to tired to say it all =P But like YAY !!! watched movie with my darling 'bf' and calvin yesh yesh, although like she thought it was a bit of a waste to watch Kung Fu Hustle in cinema I think it was worth it !!! =P Haha yuppies, ate a lot today too, like to resturant meals gosh, two rounds of shark fin !!! so yeah, if I'm not so tired tomorrow I'll continue haha =P

Its Christmas !!!

YAYERS !!! Its Christmas !!! =D Haha, and ya know what? Feeling super high and cheerful now yay !!! Haha and its all thanks to my 'bf' yesh yesh, keeping me company when I'm like superly bored and stuff, well wish everyone a Merry Christmas !!! Enjoy yourselves all you guys out there, for those who drink hope ya all don't get major hangovers, for the rest have loads of fun yeah !!! =)

Christmas Eve Hm...

Its Christmas Eve yay !!! Haha yups, feeling hm... alright I guess, don't really feel anything different really =P Wanted go out today but like knew it would be crowded and stuff so just pigged out at home =P I don't know why but I'm just feeling weird this Christmas, I think its mainly cause I still have school which just makes it feel so weird, man, they should never let this happen again kinda spoils the whole mood a bit. But I am glad for the holiday, get to take a break from school for a few days yeah, but i still have homework and stuff, so its like argh... Oh well, its still Christmas yeah =) Don't really look forward to getting present and stuff (never really get anything anyway), but guess its more the significance of the day ya know, its the day Jesus was born !!! Yeah, and thats what really cheers me up and gets my spirit up during Christmas, besides spending time with my good buddies and stuff. Yeah, I just love spending time with people, don't have to do much or say much, but just being around for people thats what I like =) So yeah, hope everyone enjoys themself tomorrow yeah =)

Oh Man...

Gosh I had one heck of a nasty stomach ache today... Like was actually crying from the pain yeah... Thank goodness I'm alright now *phew*. Hm... quiet day really, nothing much happening, only missed really boring bad class today so yay !!! =P Yups, and like have so many CDs i wanna buy, man... If like everyone could buy one of them for Christmas I'll be VERY happy =P Haha anyways watching TV !!! The Godfather III yeah, so off I go !!!

Thinking

Hm... at my favourite past time once again, thinking. Its like I'm always thinking about stuff, my heads always working and the gears are always moving, strange really, may be its to make up for when I listen to music, cause thats when my brain kinda switches off from most things except the music itself, ya know its like so weird, I think I'd find it weird without music. Like when I'm out alone and I'm walking around, I find it very disturbing without my music on, its like the world around me becomes super noisy and I'm like super sensitive to sound, but yet at the same time feel a kinda emptiness like its quiet amid all the loudness without my music. Its a really hard thing to explain, but yeah, thats how much i love music =P Which is why I buy so many CDs, I don't really consider it a waste, its more like an investment for me. Its like putting money for my musical education, like I learn something from every CD I buy, so like theres a thousand different ideas and tunes all just stored up in my head somewhere. But for now its like I'll study and do all my normal stuff, but next time, FOR SURE, I'm gonna go into music, and like all the stuff I've learn and all that about music will be real useful yeah. Yeah, music is a lot about me, its all about emotion and feel, and in a way thats what I'm like to, very emotional person. Like for music you have to bring across the emotions through the singing, the playing, if not it'll be so dead. And like people say emo music is so exaggerated and stuff, but it actually really isn't, its like really sincere expression of emotion through music, and thats a wonderful thing to me. Which is why I like british music so much, cause its all about the feel, creating the mood and feel that just moves ya know. They aren't always very technical or anything, but they sure know how to play with the feel and that to me is what real musicians should aim for, being able to create the feel and let the listeners feel the emotions, feel the music. And thats one thing I really thank God for, giving me the ability to feel the music, some people never get it, some people never understand it, but God was kind enough to give me this ability that has allowed me to really enjoy music, and want to share it with other people, cause whats a beautiful thing if you don't share it? What is so wonderful and amazing if you don't share it? And in way its the same for God's word isn't it, beautiful things have to be shared, so yeah, lotsa thoughts today, but don't want to give people headaches reading a really long posting haha, be back with more of my musings and thoughts tomorrow yups.

Arghs diarrhoea...

Oh man !!! I have diarrhoea which so sucks... Last night it was painful man, like I was stuck in the toilet and even sleept there for one hour cause I was so tired and stuff. Didn't really get much sleep so yeah, gonna sleep most of the day away. On the plus side i get to skip school, but doesn't really make up for my tiredness and pain I had to endure =l (Okay its a close one, cause school's a real pain too) I think its what I ate last night, Korean noodles then waffles with ice cream, maybe its the combo, or like maybe one of them wasn't exactly clean, whatever it is I'm gonna be very careful what I eat for the next few days yeah. I hope I get well before Christmas, all the yummy food will be so wasted if I can't eat any of it...

I Love Ice Cream !!!

Man I love ice cream =D Was at Gelare just now ate waffle with two scoops of ice cream, chocolate overload and all white chocolate with chips yeah !!! Haha happy now yesh, but like really really tired, gosh think I'll really sleep early today. Watched Oceans 12 today was hm... a so-so show I guess, waiting for Kung Fu Hustle !!! Which is like out in two days yay !!! And like today my brother came back with a whole stack of books, MAN, I wish he got em during my holidays =l Yuppies, other then that just really tired in school, my timetable can really drain the life force outta people man... Oh well, Christmas is coming yay !!! Although it doesn't really make that much of a difference, am rather cheerful most of the time anyway =P

*Stretches* Just Got Up

*Stretches and yawns* wow, just got up =D Haha took a much needed nap, like so tired man, but yeah, a lot better now. Today had school from 9-6, and like for 9-4 itz da same subject was like omigosh man, but good think the teacher was nice, like gave the class two one hour break yeah =) Other than that wasn't really much happening in school, boring day as usual. And oh oh !!! Ate dinner out haha, yuppies was KFC and wasn't like really fantastic or anything but you know what they say, its the company not the food that matters !!! (unless its really that bad =P)

And I soooooo wanna get one CD, Here Is Nowhere by Secret Machines, but like gosh, I'm broke now. And like when I do get some cash have to go all the way to HMV to buy !!! drats =l

Wahhhhh, Long Days Ahead

Wahhhhh, am like really tired now, man, and its only been like one week of school proper? Oh well, have to say its been fun too, especially with the stuff happening in church, todays worship wasn't too bad !!! Yeah it was kinda messy and stuff but haha, think everyone had fun and yeah, lotsa noise !!! =P Tomorrow have like a 9 to 6 day omigosh man, like how tiring !!! All because of having school round Christmas time, which is so silly, makes things so difficult for everyone =l And like classes have to be rescheduled and stuff, make my others days so darn packed !!! Its ridiculus !!! An outrage !!! I feel like complaining to someone !!! But like its no use =l Oh well, I will endure !!! Preservere yes, and patiently wait for my next holidays to relax !!!

Todays music special: Bought the album Aha Shark Heartbeat by Kings of Leon, and like yeah, whatevers your first impression of the album title should more or less sums up what they sound like, they are weird !!! Its like a blend of a lot of old school rock with a bit of blues and country and the guy sings with a sort of southern twang, really unusual. But then again, most of the music i listen to is unusual so its like normal to me haha =P So yeah, if you wanna hear it for yourself look for me !!! =)

And on the heavier stuff. Been thinking, about that gal hm... I think I don't really wanna bother about it anymore, if it happens then it happens, yups, after thinking about it, it is gonna be kinda hard if I did get together with her, cause like I need attention man, like to spend time with people who really mean something to me and like shes always so busy she probably wouldn't be able to do that, so yeah, see how it goes, and if nothing happens its alright too. Cause like I don't know, have like great friends like my darling 'bf' (you know who you are =P) and all the other buddies in church yeah. Kinda feel like its okay if I remain single, although i would love to be in a relationship, never really been in a proper one before, but oh well, if its not time yet then yeah so be it right? Like if its not gonna be a serious relationship that will last then I rather not have it in the first place, yeah lots of stuff for me to think about.

Wow I'm Tired

Just got back home wah, I'm like so tired man. Was at St. George's Place which is like a shelter for people in need, like having fanancial problems, single parents, etc... And like was playing with the kids and stuff, they were so cute !!! Running around and all that haha, really were bundles of joy =P And all the carol singing today gosh, I LOVE SINGING !!! Especially nice Christmas carols, and like thinking of parts to harmonize and stuff, man I love it !!!

Now I gotta go get some work done, meeting up with a classmate for project work tomorrow, so yeah gotta at least prepare a bit, try to be a lil responsible haha =P And i'm playing tomorrow !!! Drums yup yup, and its like really funky cool stuff !!! Haha I love Simon man, comes up with so many cool ideas its always so fun to play music with him. So yups, thats about all for today, I still have to practise my guitar on top of my work yeah !!! =P

Woohoo !!!

WOOHOO !!! Todays practise for Sunday was like a blast man !!! Really fun stuff yeah, man i love playing the drums, haha i just love music !!! So anyways tomorrow will be carolling yay !!! Then Sunday drums, what a cool week =D Yeah just real tired and stuff man, the practise like blew my mind haha so yeah, thats all for today tomorrow !!! Will probably have a lot to say tomorrow haha =P

I Love Singing !!!

I LOVE SINGING !!! Haha yeah !!! Christmas carols especially !!! When like get to sing in parts and all like how fun man !!! Haha yeah like thinking up parts to fit to songs and like hearing it harmonized, so nice man, just love it =P

Haha before practise I was a lil =l cause of my accounting tutor, shes like quite arghhhhh, if ya know what I mean. But after thinking about it a bit guess she isn't to bad yeah, and its christmas time soon !!! So yeah, happy !!! And like i gotta get started on my christmas cards man or I'll never be done =P

How Cool !!!

YAY !!! Haha, got to go out with her for awhile today, sent her to work yeah. Even though was like for a short while still was nice, haha especially when she smiles =P Yup yup didn't really talk that much or do anything much but its alright, still don't really know her that well so yeah, take things slowly and who knows what could happen? ;) But haha, have to say was really happy to see her again, cause was missing her quite a bit already =P

And now I got to get ready to go back to school again, two hour accounting tutorial ahhhhhh, the torture... And then I'm off for practise !!! Carolling yay !!! Love to sing man should be like really fun stuff =D Haha yup yup, thats all for the moment, stay tuned for days of my life !!! =x (okay that wasn't funny =P)

Thoughts for 15th Dec 2004

Okay now its time to explain why I suddenly got inspiration for the poem =P Been going through quite a rough patch lately, sigh... Found someone I really love but like, i don't know... Its hard when shes always busy and like yeah, actually feel lonelier after knowing her... I don't know how much of this I can take, and like really wondering if i should reconsider it all, just so many things running through my head so its like really confusing yeah... But hey !!! Like my poem says theres gonna be a way out !!! No idea what I should do or anything yet but from past experiences, God has alway helped me out so yeah !!! Will preservere =)

And the other thing is my studies, man i screwed up my last one and a half years and like got a lot of catching up to do, gonna have to study like crazy but its okay !!! Know I can do it with God's help yup =)

And now on to lighter things. Went for a dinner for some distant relative's wedding, where I was surrounded by even more distant relatives I have never heard off or seen before. So yeah, was like EXTREMELY bored, and the food sucked okay !!! Tasted bad and like so lil of it. It was like totally cheesy normal chinese wedding, super drama music and cheesy entries and stuff, and to make the whole thing worst then it was already the service sucked BIG TIME. Its like everyone was smiling, upside down, and like they had attitude man, like will NEVER have my wedding dinner there next time thats for sure. Got a long day of school tomorrow argh... Hopefully I'll still be alive at the end of it =P

Well guess thats about all for today, yeah, gotta stop somewhere or I'll just keep going on haha =P

Feeling Artsy

Hope

Why are emotions so confusing?
The unpredictability of the heart.
What you think and what you feel,
hardly ever get along.
Too many feelings, too much thinking,
conflicts that just tear you apart.
I am tired, oh so tired,
worn out and i need help.

I feel lost at sea, the vast dark sea,
without a soul in sight.
I need a beacon, a shining lighthouse,
to guide me out of the dark.
Then all of a sudden, and to my surprise,
as night starts to settle down,
I look at the sky, and see a stark contrast,
of bright stars against the dark.

Not just a cluster, or a random pattern,
but a straight path leading away.
It is amazing, oh what a splendor,
my way out given by God.
Oh how fitting, that at this hour,
when darkness and gloom is around.
God sends a way out, what a wonderful way out,
my journey home has began.

So when all thing fail, and you are lost and alone,
never ever lose heart.
Hold on and preservere, for things will be clear,
when God shows His beautiful way out.

by Jesher Tan

Its just a lil poem I kinda thought up during my lecture, was really bored =x Haha but yeah, want it to be an encouragement to other Christians, if you like it like share it with your friends yeah !!! I allow you all to do that !!! =)

Moi first time

Heya all !!! This is my first time trying this so yups, yay !!! =P Haha okok, to get things started just abit about me, I'm a music freak (like duh its what my site name is right?) and yeah, I play the drums, guitar and sing, and like have tons of CDs (spent like a bomb on em already), spend most of my days listening to em. About my school go to Temasek Polytechnic, which is quite an alright school yeah, and doing the course Law & Management (okay now I'm expecting all the oooo's and ahhh's). But really it isn't that much, kinda boring actually =P So yups, thats for starts, any comments and stuff yeah, they're welcome =)